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Saturday, August 26, 2006


In this world, not a lot of people play by the rules. If you are the only doing so, then you are bound to lose.

Rules. There are thousand of rules in this world we have to adhere to. School, life, study, friends, love, home, anything. Humans are constantly bounded by rules. The presence of such regulations are seen to help us in our daily lives, for us to live in a systematic and orderly way.

You have to wear your uniform in a neat manner. You have to do your assignments by this particular date. You have to wash the dishes every night at home. You have to draw the line and take great caution to not step on anyone's tail in personal relations.

Many many have-tos. Yet, who knows which rules are right, which are not?

If rules are there to ensure things don't go out of hands, then why do i still see people's lives crash?

You know you are supposed to leave, but you cant bear to. You know you are just an invisible, but you just want to give yourself another oppprtunity to hurt your own self. You know clearly what the rules of life say, but your heart tells you otherwise. If you stick to the rules, you are bound to lose out. And you will see the person that matters so much to you walk away happily hand in hand with another person.

You know it. But what can you do? Rules are still rules. Deep inside your heart, you understand, if you step across this line, you will be seen as a nuisance and there goes the friendship.

You have not been a very rule-abiding person in school, but the school has never deem you as a student beyond redemption. You will still graduate from this school with grades decent enough to get into a college. In school, if you follow the rules close enough and finish your assignments on time, revise as you ought to, you will reap the results. However, life doesn not apply this way.

There are so much things you really hoped to make a difference in, but none that you have succeeded. You see your friend crying her heart out for she forgot all about the day that she totally looked forward to since a month ago.

You feel sorry for her. Yet what can you say? Through this grief, it's wrong to say she's deserves it. But it's also not right to say blatantly that thing's over, no point regretting. Then you follow the rules. for the rules say, in such a situation, you advise her on how she should salvage this problem. In the process, it's up to you whether you wish to listen to her cry a while more.

Have you tried helping anyone out? You try to say many nice things to let them feel a little more comforted and confident. You try to ensure that they are kept busy every single day so that they wouldn't start thinking about things.

What's the whole point of it all? At the end of the day, you still see the person stuck in there cos they simply refuse to budge. They are too overwhelmed in their pitiful little world that they forgot there was someone that really tried to help. For to them, that someone is not the special one. So they don't care.

They said millions of thanks to you for comforting them, and promised that they will be there to listen to you too. Yet, you cannot even get a reply from them when you are just finding someone for a casual chat. May i ask, if this certain someone does not care less to chat with you, how much will he or she care to listen to you cry?

In this world, rules and emotions have always been a conflicting issue. The book says you ought to do it this way, yet your emotions tell you that this is wrong. Then, all you can do is to accept. Accept that everything will turn out fine, just like how raindows are supposed to appear after rain.

If there's this thing that's making you unhappy, then basically, it's one that brings you harm to your life. Then you will shed some light on the current situation and realise that this thing may be better off as memories...



rantings.