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Thursday, August 24, 2006


Okay. I kind of did this blog on impulse so i'm not sure how long this will last. But anyway, this's just a place for me to pen my thoughts...

How does it feel to have someone that envies you?She envies you to the extent that she tries to mimic you.Whether she knows it or not, you two use the same tone when you gossips about the scandals of celebrities. You two have the same taste in certain things because YOU said it was nice. The simple bland things that YOU do feels so unique in her eyes.

Deep down, she knows she can't be you,due to limitations, but she's still trying. In those ways when she thinks she can. Perhaps she trying to retain a little of herself in the process.But hey, what's her?

Peer influencing is fine. However, when it crosses the line and somehow or rather she seems more anxious about things that happen to YOU than YOU are, then something's wrong.

When you get so so interested with this guy and you start whining to her about how good he is, she gets so elatedthat it feels like she's the one in love!When a guy is interested in you, she picks and chooses like she's the one in it. When things happen to YOU, she gets so worked up, sometimes even more than you do. When someone pisses YOU off, she gets so hostile to that person like she's the one in the shithole. Yes, you were very unhappy, but she seemed like she HATED that person to the core. Like she had this really huge grudge against this person.She ignored that person for you, she screamed at how atrocious the person is for you. Everytime that you were supposed to do, she did it twice as much.

Is this really because she's your best friend, she feels for you and she wants the best for you?

Hey.. Girl.. think of what i said in the train.. This entry is getting a little too emo..
But, seriously, it's the little actions in her that made me notice..the little glances.. the shifting of chairs and sitting positions...you're in it, i'm not. I'm just a objective-absolutely-no-personal-feelings bystander.



rantings.