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Sunday, October 08, 2006


i'm bloody pissed. i try to be nice and inform one of my girlfriends about the world map and it's monsoons and the belts, she bloody damn didnt show any form of appreciation for it. for she cut me off with a i get it, bye when i repeated umpteen times that our teacher gave us the map to familarize with everything but the question will rarely appear. and she can still go on her i-know-it-all ways and say it's impossible that the examiners will give us a question that requires us to identify the belts in the world. WHICH WORD IN MY SENTENCE DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND, MY GIRL? IS IT FAMILARIZE OR RARELY? DO YOU NEED ME TO GO TO DICTIONARY .COM AND GIVE YOU ALL THE DAMN MEANINGS FOR THESE WORDS? MAYBE YOU WILL UNDERSTAND MY MEANING BETTER.

and then while i'm really trying very hard to digest the freaking monsoons and which way it goes and how it get named northeast and northwest and figuring if i should just memorise hard core with all that confusing names, my brother and maid just adds to my irritation. one keeps coughing and pushing my chair. some occasional strokes on my hair when he gets tired. how i wish i can just slam him on the floor and let him understand i don't like him stroking my hair and give that bloody whistle like he had done nothing wrong. oh, no. i don't think he needs that understanding cos it's obvious he's doing it to make me irritated. and the more angry i become, the louder he whistles. god damn it. you will die with such a ten-year-old brother.

the other vacuums the floor just right next to me. and trust me that deafening vacuum cleaner with it's stench is driving me nuts. i seriously think it's time for my parents to bid farewell to it when they last see in the garbage chute or something. and my maid's like opening a concert every single day. it's not that it's very awful, and that i'm some evil bitch trying to deprive her of her only consolation for being alone out of her hometown, but you know these singings often distract you till you can't actually get anything into your mind. and when you cant, you get really frustrated and forget about all the pity and the saint things you have to do to understand her.

and then my parents come home, trying to do a little interaction with her ten year old son, theatening to cane him if he doesnt get things done. very often than not, i'm involved. cos her threat that gets so boring is, '' zijun ah, can you get the cane for me?'' it's empties cries but her shrieks are doing alot to distract me...

okay i'm done. with everything out, maybe i can achieve more as soon as i close this page and go back to my work.

note. this is just me venting my frustrations. no offence to anyone. and i can be very crude at times when i'm irritated though i'm not very sure if this is the time... but anyway, anything i curse here, i dont mean it. it's just cos i'm angry. i'm just a stressed up 16 year old teen trying to relieve some stress...



rantings.