basically, i want to say i'm sorry. i know i have said it umpteen times and you have probably adapted to our life now, lowering your standards as we spend our days doing mindless things like wrapping and talking about my sprees. i seemed to have made our couple life deteriorate, and this guilt seemed to be manifesting in my dreams. till date, i have woken up twice, crying and the dreams seemed to be getting more vivid and heartbreaking. and i hate to say, i always wake up from these dreams telling myself that i should stop doing such stuff to harm our relationship but somehow or rather, i still end up doing it. much as dear keeps telling me that he's okay with it, i'm pretty sure he will love to be doing some other stuff with me.